Gilded deep blue and green
work to create a perfect screen,
make me mysterious, unseen.
I can hide all my tears
behind my beautiful mask and
quietly ensure that no-one hears.
Undisturbed, set apart from the rest,
yet raging in silence,
I keep my feelings suppressed.
This is the perfect place to guard
and keep my secrets safe, while
the rest of the world stays barred.
And from my private hiding place
the misty world I look upon
is edged with golden grace.
Faces look on me with smiling eyes
as I spy on their shadows
from the veil of my disguise.
I will carry on the masquerade
and keep my mystery close,
while the memories begin to fade.
I can maintain this dumb pretence
and hold my private vigil;
but soon there will be no defence.
That crushed and crumpled paper tissue
left lying on the table
reveals reality of what is true.
© Jackie Biggs 2017
From the ‘objects on the table’ workshop at Rhosygilwen, run by Peter and Brenda.
Jackie Biggs’ first collection, The Spaces in Between, was published in September 2015 by Pinewood Press (Swansea). She has also had poetry published in many magazines and anthologies, both in print and online. She reads her work at spoken word events all over west Wales, where she lives. She is co-organiser of The Cellar Bards spoken word event in Cardigan, a former chair of PENfro Book Festival and a member of the Rockhoppers poetry performance group. She has been a member of PENfro Poets since its inception in 2012. Some of her poetry appears on her blog: http://jackie-news.blogspot.co.uk